Marriage

Me being 26,

Mom, aunty, grandma, all been asking me when to get married?

Other cousins with same age have got married. Even my little sister got married before me. Guess what, they are all women.

Most of my friends also have gotten their first child this year. Spamming my newsfeed in Facebook and instagram home feed everyday. No offense, congrats to them.

The issue right now is why push me to get married.

because everybody around me mostly got married.?
because i am old already. 26 is old if you are single..?
because i am the next in line in the family who should get married?
because life's get expensive?
because i am lonely?

Marriage is a matter of heart. From inside.

Feelings. Commitment.

I failed in bf-gf commitment. How do me expect in husband-wife commitment..

I am not a good boyfriend material. I am sorry to all the girls out there i hurt.

But i definitely sure is a good friend material. I am.

Being single is free. Free from taking care of someone's heart.

I can wake up anytime without sending "Good Morning" text to someone.
I can sleep anytime i want and not worry not reply anyone's messages.
I can do whatever i want without giving anyone attention in the other side of the planet.
I can ignore the world without hurting anyone's feeling.

I work everyday. Attend meeting from time to time.
I go to gym every night.
I hang out with bunch of friends.
I watch movies alone.
I love "me time" in the room watching television.
I travel a lot.

That's the life i am living right now.

Being ignorant and free.

Though bit lonely, it's freedom.

No matter how much i want to have a wife and start a family, i am not ready yet. At least for now.

Dont push me.
Dont ask me.
Don't question me.
Just like asking married couple without kids when to have kids, it's rude.

My time will come.

No pressure.

Just follow the flow the wind blow. 🌬

Berat

dari dulu nak naikkan berat badan..
sampai skang x naik naik..
apa yg perlu aku lakukan haaahhhhhhhhh...
haaihhh sssstresssss..

jawapannya adalah makan la..
skang tgh lapar..
apa lagi, makan la..
aku makan pun malas..
makan pun x ikot time..
mana nak naik berat badan...

okay2
rasa dh boleh makan dah sekarang..
tak tau la ada lauk apa kat meja..
jom g check..
bismillah hirrohmanirrohim..

Saman

sebelum majlis konvokesyen bulan 11 atau 12 ni,
uitm suruh clearkan hutang piutang kat depa..
aku pun check la ada hutang ke tak..
rupanya ada.....
jumlah RM200..
dan aku mcm what the puck!
apahal mahal sangat.. dia tulis saman lalu lintas..
ingat punya ingat aku memang x ingat bila..
aku pun call lah diorang..
pastu dia pun bgtau la bila aku kena..
2 kali kena saman lalu lintas..
yg first sebab takde sticker..
yg second sebab parking kat tepi jalan..
okay aku pun dah ingat lah balik bila.. lolz..
tapi still what the whaatt lah 1 saman bernilai seratus!!
dulu aku kena saman parking MBSA x sampai 50!
tp walaupun 2 saman 200, tp dia kata kompaun dikenakan 100 je..
so kene bayar 100 je.. aku tanya la dia blh kurang lagi tak..
dia tak bagi.. aku pun redha je la..
tp tetap 100 weh!!
mana aku nk curik duit nih.. dh la kerja xde..
100 boleh beli mcm2 kot yg boleh memuaskan hidup aku..
haritu dah mintak ayah duit bayar duit streamyx rumah sewa...
pastu nk mintak lagi 100 pasal saman uitm..
ahh demmit la you.. dh habis belajar pun kena susah lagi..
memang wajib kena bayar sebab nak konvo kan.. lolz..
xpe la nnt aku bayar la..
pastu lagi requirement utk konvo, kene submit sijil MUET
dan sesungguhnya slip MUET aku dah hilang ntah ke mana..
aku x cari pun.. tgk dalam folder sijil xde, sah la hilang..
kena buat slip tu kat kementerian peperiksaan..
haigoooo malas gila............
sapa nk teman........

Call

pagi tadi,
phone berbunyi..
number 03 yang tidak dikenali..
aku menjawab panggilan tersebut..
kedengaran suara wanita dan melafazkan kata2..
"hello, may I speak to Sulaiman"
dan aku pun menjawab dengan suara seksi ala2 baru bgn tidor..
"yes, speaking" dan aku kenal suara itu..
suara admin Bina Scheduler..
dia call.. tanya dah kerje ke belum..
dan aku cakap belum..
dan dia panggil untuk 2nd interview hari rabu ni..
seriously? selepas sebulan lebihhh...
dan memandangkan aku memanglah tidak bekerja lagi..
aku pun okay la sebab memang menunggu nunggu pun..
menunggu panggilan interview la..
so rabu ni.. kene g office dia kat PJ..
ntah la 2nd interview ni apa yg akan di interviewkan..
dulu 1st interview dengan admin dia..
nanti rabu ni dengan director dia pulak..
hmm
doa doakan lah aku berjaya..
walaupun aku ada dgr benda mengenai syarikat ni..
tapi aku x kesah.. i'll do the best kalau dapat kerja..
i had enough of leisure time without earning money..
ntah la buat masa sekarang ni ye la semangat.
nnt dah kerja nanti, ada la nnt update bosan la nk tuka kerja la tu la ni la.
aku akan cuba menjadi yg terbaik tanpa mengupdate perkara mcm tu..
ya..akanku cuba dan cuba dan coba..

Biscuit

Biscuit Teacher and Star Candy or Hello My Teacher

this is K-Drama..

aku pun x tau la apasal orang prejudice skeptikal sgt dgn korea/japan

aku rasa okay je..

they are better than mat salleh2 barat tu..

cerita ni aku dah tengok lama dulu dah zaman tok kadok..

tapi tiba2 mcm teringat balik, aku pun cari link kat youtube..

mula2 stream kat youtube je tgk part by part..

last2 rasa mcm lembab gila.. terfikir la nak mendownload..

lantas aku mencari download link kat google..

dan sememangnya, google x pernah menghampakan..

like people say, "google is everyone bestfriend"

indeed google is my bestfriend!

hah.. lepas jumpa download link, aku pun mula lah mendownload..

start dari episode satu sampai sekarang ni tgh download episode 8..

tu direct download..

tapi at the same time torrent download sentiasa berjalan..

torrent download full episode..

tgk la mana satu siap dulu kan..

total episode ada 16..

subtitle mmg dah download awal dah..

boleh la satu hari satu episode yg direct download ni..

walaupun download 6 jam, aku redha je.. 

cerita ni best..

pasal budak sekolah dan cikgu..

and friendship between classmates sume..

membuatkan aku teringat kehidupan sebagai pelajar.. eceywahh

walaupun mcm cliche sbb dorang mmg byk buat cerita mcm ni,

tapi it different on its own way..

sebab tu aku nak tgk lagi selepas bertahun2 dah usia cerita ni..

plus, aku amat lah bosan xde bende nk buat dlm bilik..

dan running man pulak seminggu sekali baru ada link download dia..

pastu movies/drama dlm external harddisk semua mcm malas nk tgk..

saje menyusahkan diri nak download jugak..

haih x sabar nk habiskan tgk cerita ni..

sambil mengalirkan air mata jantan aku.. 

hahaha

Ntah

i don't know why but i feel awkward writing blog sekarang ni... ntah rasa mcm dah tak reti bercerita dalam ni... ntah.. maybe feeling nk bercerita tak sampai lagi kot.. ntah.. tak tau la.. bakat menaip dan bercerita dah tak de kot.. lolz.. atau maybe sebab kehadiran twitter kot.. situ tempat aku update apa2 setiap saat.. jadi mcm malas nk type pjg2 dalam blog.. tp.. ntah... tunggu feeling datang baru boleh seronok menaip dalam blog kot... ntah

Hanging

currently i am unemployed..
for 2 months since i fully submitted my dissertation..
2 times went to interview at 2 different companies..
my 1st interview, was not too well, maybe because i was not well prepared.
but my 2nd interview, was not too bad.. but still not too good..
hmmm i have to improve..... next interview i'll try to do the best..
but no call for interview yet.. zZZ

and what i've been doing right now is......
youtube-ing, fb, twitter, reading manga, and watching movies and dramas from ext hddisk.
what a waste of life heh..

i should go work with my father..
i will..